America here I come!!!!

I did it, I have finally booked a trip off the continent of Europe! Last night I said goodbye to 717€ and booked my flights! 

For 3 weeks in August I shall be touring the USA for the first time which I find funny as I have an American History Masters and I’ve never set foot in the States! 

I have now spent the last two hours downloading every travel book I can find while texting my travel buddy warning her when we get to Boston and Washington DC I am going to completely nerd out on her and she’s going to hate me.

This trip has been a long time coming I’ve been in a rut in my current job which I will finally be leaving once I head to America as I am hoping to be inspired and find a better job once I come back or even find my calling in America. I have found in the few hours its been since I booked these flights last night I am motivated to further my life that sitting at home and going to a job I hate is not for me I want to do something I have a passion for and feel a sense of excitement whenever I talk about it. 

So all thats really left to say is AMERICA here I come!!!! 😀

Sometimes its worse being left behind

In the last three days one of my best friends has decided he’s moving to Florida after being made redundant and my brother has moved back to Italy after being home for Christmas. Now I am left with the overwhelming thought that staying at home is worse than actually moving. As someone who has moved country before I know what its like its brilliant once the initial homesickness passes, its much worse getting to watch people live out these amazing lives while being stuck in a thankless job and saving money to quit and travel!

Now I’m trying to fight off the feeling that I’m stuck in a rut not knowing what to do with my life. Its tough to get motivation for life when you don’t have control over what’s going on in life and waiting to find out whether or not I’ve been invited to an interview to one of the hundred or so applications I’ve sent out over the last two months.

Friends and family are off leading exciting lives like I used to do but instead I’m stuck here preparing to go to work in the morning to a job I’m not excited about.

So now I find myself coming to the conclusion that sometimes its worse being left behind than the one taking the scary leap into the unknown world of travel and adventure. 

 

Productivity wanted!

I finally have a day off, its something that is covered to those who have sold their souls to retail! I am one of those people who is suffering in the world of retail, the long hours, crappy pay and aggravated customers who are angry for absolutely NO reason! 

Now I have patience a lot of it and customers often comment on my patience with them, their children and their outrageous requests! I don’t mind that at all after all its a job and I’m lucky yo have one… my main issue with the hardships of retail is the after effects! As I sit here writing this I have barely found the energy to move as far as the front garden to collect the post. 

The majority of the time retail is enjoyable and I work with one of the best teams I have ever found yet sometimes it is utterly draining. Especially as it is not an area I am truly passionate about like technology, writing, social media or languages! 

What I’m trying to say is that on my days off, (which have been rare as of late) are completely void of productivity and passion for life which in itself has been starting to make me sad and tired!

I need something to inject me with passion and motivation on my days off!! 

Internship Black Hole

Internships and graduate roles, that’s all I’ve been looking at for the past two weeks. Those words are like the bane of my existence at the moment. I received my Masters results two weeks ago and barely two hours had passed TWO HOURS before my dad started asking me about what I was going to do next!!

 

Since then he hasn’t stopped asking “what about this job? Or this one? Or that one?” then last night at Sunday dinner he started again and it hit me I’m graduating from my Masters degree and I have no real plans, there are some vague ideas or inklings of what I would like to do but I can’t say “I know what I’m going to do next.”

This is probably the scariest thing, one of the main reasons I did a Masters was the now redundant belief that I would know what I wanted to do with my life when I finished! Well that was a failure!

 

Then as I write this, my carefree friends are texting me about their crazy weekends and I’m yearning to have as much fun as they did. BUT I have to sort my life out. Any free time I have had in the last two weeks has been taken up with redoing my C.V, cover letter and applying for jobs.  This is making me long for the carefree college days when all I had to worry about was whether or not to pull an all-nighter to get an assignment done!

 

Before I posted this I let it sit for about 2/3 days and since then I have been invited to attend an interview, in the email I received it told me there was no salary bar 150E a week which would just about cover my travel expenses. It would be working 9-5, 5 days a week! Now I know every job can’t pay well to start off but it would be over 1000E pay cut if I was to take it and I only work part time in retail at the moment and I’m not even that highly paid. It annoys me how people believe that college graduates will work for pittance to earn experience; I paid thousands upon thousands for college not to even mention my year abroad, which were 10,000 alone.

 

So as I sit here sipping my morning coffee, it seems that now more than ever this post-graduate life of looking for a “proper” job seems like a black hole & vortex more than ever!