When men become women

I’ve begun to realise recently than men are more hormonal and prone to mood swings than a woman pmsing. After breaking it off with a stoner I thought to myself “WTF” was I doing with someone who is more emotionally stunted then a tree stump or a hedgehog I haven’t really decided yet.

Now I have no problem with anyone taking the occasional hit and I thought I could deal with it and that he would eventually stop. Boy was I special thinking that, it was so not the case, in fact he would just smoke more and more and when life got harder he would take more and more hits it bordered on an addiction… in fact I think it was an addiction but there was no telling him that.

If we ever had a disagreement he would stop talking to me until I saw his point of view or would argue consistently plague me until I gave in. Now that I have time to reflect on it all I can see, it was such a bum and girlish move to pull! Its worse then any of the stuff I played when I was 18 now that we are in our middle 20’s we should not be playing these childish and pathetic games. Not only that but if he ever had drama going on in his life, the stress was taken out on me, I was called childish, foolish and dramatic for asking for there to be a little more communication so I could support him through his difficult times or if I asked if he wanted space I was blasted for trying to end it.

Needless to say I have now begun to realise men are girls and girls are men about a lot more then they are given credit for. Maybe its time for men to actually become more masculine and give up with the drama queen antics for example deleting a girl after she tells him she has pushed him away.

Evening strolls

I love the seaside especially Dun Laoghaire Pier, it’s beautiful and despite the constant stream of people its peaceful. You can get lost in your thoughts for hours on end.

So I’ve sorta been a shitty person lately, I’ve neglected my friends, family and general life direction since I went on a whirlwind trip to America. I had the time of my life, saw a whole new world (excuse the Aladdin reference) and met a foreign man, who unfortunately remains in America. All I can think about is when can I go back? I’m trying to get a job to pay for flights, enrol in a course that will let me study there and even applying to jobs in America so I can move there. 

But what is any of this going to do for my life? While it looks and sounds pro-active I have no idea if any of it will ever work out. Once again I’m afraid that I can see myself spiralling down into the depths of a rut.

 

BUT somehow I must persevere and get on and DO SOMETHING with my life.. But realistically its all so confusing, everyone keeps telling me I’m too young to have my life planned and sorted but yet anyone my age seems to have their life sorted and moving on with things… Everything seemed simpler when I was 22, because then nobody likes you when your 23 and at 24 you just spend the time having melt downs!!! 

Nothing like it

There is nothing like standing on HILL16 during a Dublin GAA match. The atmosphere, the pride and the sheer exhilaration has yet to be matched. Or well its my opinion that it cannot be matched. I’ve done a lot of crazy things in my life and while they have been exciting and sometimes life changing but yet the atmosphere has yet to match that which can be found on Hill16!

The Irish Super Bowl

The Irish Super Bowl that’s how my brother described the All Ireland Football final between Dublin and Mayo. I’ve got to say that’s certainly how it felt. For the first time since 1995 I joined my dad in Croke Park on Hill 16. It was the only place to be and it’s something that every Dublin supporter should experience the sheer pride and support emanating from everyone is indescribable.
Now I’ve been to my fair share of concerts over the year but noting could have prepared me for this.

There’s a saying amongst Dublin supporters that goes “Hill 16 is Dublin only!”. This wasn’t the case on the day due to the ticketing split, which resulted in a considerable number of Mayo supporters on the Hill and I felt for them I really did but seriously going to Hill 16 on All Ireland Sunday when Dublin was in the final that was a serious mistake. I happened to be surrounded by Dublin supporters but there was a Mayo group not to far in front and the stick they got one supporter pointed to the step they were on and said “that’s been my spot for the last twenty years…… MOVE!” Which led to a massive cheer of “Hill 16 is Dublin only!” The fair weather supporters got upset about this but when you come to the stadium that is the home of GAA in the county that houses GAA and go to the centre of the die hard Dublin supporters what did they expect?!?!? I think this has some how turned into a case for Hill 16 being Dublin only but to a certain extent I’m biased being from Dublin but in all fairness…..

Anyway my brother summed it up really, thousands of Irish fans from all over the world tuned in to watch this match and do every year, I’m not sure even the Super Bowel can claim that while it’s popular I doubt many of the spectators live up to the Irish fans at the All Ireland final!

But in the end Dublin won and are All Ireland champions, they did us proud despite having to beat the referee who was clearly against them, come on you boys in blue!!!!!